I’m Human

Get ready for another all-too-real entry of Raina’s journal that I’m sharing because, well actually I’m not sure why I’m sharing it. Maybe just to say that I’m real. I’m human. I have doubts. I get jealous. I just want the attention of the world ok. Is that too much to ask?

I live in an almost constant state of jealousy. I want to be the center of attention at all times. I want my phone to be ringing off the hook with all of the people who want to hang out with me. I want to have a circle of people around me at all times, keeping me company and laughing at my jokes. Seeing two friends hanging out without me can send me into a tailspin. Not outwardly of course because I’m a classy woman with self control (not). But it distracts me from whatever i am doing. even if i could not have hung out anyways, I still want to be invited. I want them to be snapchatting me, saying that they wished I was there. I want them to be face timing me because I can’t be there in person. Why am I like this? IDK. Is it normal? IDK. Am i just super self involved and want to be the center of attention? Most likely

I’m not sure why I’m even writing this or if I’ll publish it. Perhaps it is triggered by the presence of social media and everything being sugarcoated and plastered on snapchat and instagram. Either way, I want your love and I want it now

Sincerely,

The attention whore formally known as Raina

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2016: The Year of Realizing Things

Just as Kylie Jenner predicted, this was a year of just, like realizing things. In 2016 I did not learn who I am, I did not fall in love, and I did not become financially grounded.

However, I did learn that two coffees a day give me sufficient energy and make for a healthy digestive tract.

I learned that Jägermeister is absolutely the most disgusting liquor. Why would anyone chose to drink that?! Never again.

I learned that in Germany you must buy a train ticker or you might get arrested (I’ll tell you more about that one a bit later)

I learned that some places have outdoor escalators and it’s the most amazing architectural decision I’ve ever witnessed. Seriously, just a random escalator in a city neighborhood.

I learned that donkey riding is not comfortable. Like at all.

I learned that I’m extroverted. I had no idea! T god for an online quiz that told me.

I learned, from the absurd number of hours I spend watching Greys Anatomy, how to be a doctor. It’s a beautiful day to save lives.

I learned that some people really take offense to being called an asshole. Sorry, the truth hurts.

I learned that Spanish wine is fantastic and costs like $5 a bottle. It makes almost anything else taste like absolute piss. Except maybe a nice bottle from Napa.

I learned how to ride a quad. Super easy.

I learned not to take three languages in school at once. Not easy.

I learned that Europeans have no idea what real Mexican food tastes like. Don’t get me wrong, they do have Mexican restaurants but it is surely not the same as in the United States or Mexico.

I learned about the different levels of poo. The highest being level 11: taking a poo in the woods and making eye contact with an animal who is also taking a poo.

 

Obviously there was so much realizing that happened in 2016, so much learning. My brain might explode because of all the realizing and learning I did. Cheers to 2017. Bye.

Fancy Seeing You Here

Welcome to my blog aka public diary. If the title was available this would be called “let me share too much information while telling you personal stories and you will maybe laugh at me as I try to find my way through beginning adulthood, college and Greek Life and also I like to take pictures” but I’m afraid that I’m gonna need a catchier blog handle. At this point I’m not sure what this blog is even called so here’s a reminder for me to insert the real name. I’m not really sure why I’m starting this. Mostly because I need a place to post pictures besides Instagram and maybe to share my thoughts. You probably don’t actually want to hear those but just in case you wanted a glimpse into the life of a 20 year old college student, today is your day! Congratulations! I’m mostly starting this as a place to keep my photos and be creative. I’ve also heard that people get free stuff so let’s face it, that’s the real reason I’m doing this. As soon as this goes public, I’ll be sitting by the fireplace waiting for my notifications to start going crazy with all brands who want to send me stuff. I’ve actually been typing journal entries for a while because sometimes I physically can’t write. Maybe I’ll get more into that sometime later. That’s much more of a 5th date kind of thing. Like a we know each other a bit more, getting a little bit serious and willing to be more vulnerable kind of thing.

So here’s a tiny bit about me. I’m 20, as previously mentioned and a college student, also mentioned. I try my absolute hardest to do as little school work as possible while maintaining my grades. Studying is not really my forte which is not something you would guess for a perspective teacher. I do however enjoy making plans to “study” with friends and then do about 7 minutes of studying and fuck around the rest of the time. It’s a pretty good life. Hmmm, what else about me. I’m going to tell you something a little bit scary in the next sentence but don’t click away just yet. Are we ready? I’m gluten free and vegan. Ok, it’s out. How many of you are still here? Don’t worry guys, I won’t try to shove it down your throat to stop eating animal products. I’m actually not vegan because of animal rights, I’m simply allergic to pretty much everything. Also gluten free, not for the lifestyle but again, because my body hates me. Anyways, that’s not exciting. Are you even still reading this?

A biography about me would not be complete without gloating about my family. I love them, dysfunction and all. I have four brothers, and my parents of course. My little brother is the cutest thing. He’s 16 though and doesn’t like to be called cute so don’t tell him I said that. Pretty much every holiday, Gabe, my little brother, and I go wheeling. So stay tuned for pictures of that. My life is basically me trying to balance conservative podunk Grants Pass, Oregon and going to a liberal university. It doesn’t always work out well. Actually it’s often, for lack of better terms, a clusterfuck. But who’s life isn’t a clusterfuck, am I right? When I’m home in Grants Pass, I’m in the mountains, doing photoshoots with friends and hiking with my puppy. At school it’s all Greek Life and grades. Ah to be 20.

Wow did anyone make it through that? I could hardly make it through that myself. And it’s my life. This is going to be a rough ride. You ready?